21 day fast (day 10)

January 10th, 2016

Its a new year and I have gone 10 days with no social media! And let me say for the record this is not easy. Just last night I saw my instagram app on my phone and said no!! then all the sudden before I realised I was scrolling through and I threw my phone and was like NOOOO!! what happened?? My body and flesh are more in control that I realized.

I will tell you I only made it 5 days with the strict diet , for me it just seemed impossible. I have always been a very small person but that doesnt mean I dont eat. I actually eat a lot and I am a glutten at many times. Just becasue people are small doesnt mean they cant over eat and even have a food addiction. Its actually worse becasue I can over eat all I want and nobody knows but me. After I made it the 5 days and stopped of course I felt defeted and like I was a loser and always quit everything, even though I am still not doing social media and really digging into the word of God I still felt just dumb. Through this though God taught me while I was reading the bible from a verse , Titus 3:3 At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. In that God showed me that food has always been a very real pleasure of mine. I've always been able to eat when and what I want and not really have any consequenses. Ive never had to watch what I eat and untill now I didnt. It hit me hard when I knew that in that area I had just given way to my flesh and what it wanted. God wants me to be self controlled in all areas of my life and especially where food is concerned. Overeating is a sin!


I want what comes out of my life to be pure!! Pure love, Pure Joy and Pure goodness from the Lord. Its like a bottomless piggy bank. You put in a penny, a penny will come out. If you put in Gold and silver that will come out. If I am constantly giving into the want of my flesh....music, tv, social media, food...sonner or later... or now, the flesh will take control just like when I said no to instagram and before you knew it I was scrolling and didnt even know what I was doing.. We have to be very controlled in our lives and while we live as such fleshy people that way the spirit has a way to seep out. Dont clogg up your spirit with your flesh leave room for some nicely brewed up holiness.

The thing that really just stinks sometimes is that we have wings that are just not attached to us yet. Our spirit knows that one day they will be on us and we will have ultimate freedom from our grounded earthly bodies.Sometimes I get a glimpse of what pure joy it will be to be with my Heavenly Father and its amazing but then I focus on my earthly problems and filling my passions and desires and often forget I will have wings, I will be free, this is not my home. If you have ever seen that movie Maleficent you know when she got her wings back she burst forth through the clouds with unlimited possibility. I kinda feel and know that's how we will be when we get to our eternal home... finally free from the anchor of flesh to hold us back..we will have our wings!! also just to clarify I don't think we will be angels its kinda a metaphor that one day we will be free from our struggle and we wont suffer anymore because we will be who we are created to be and not held back by the flesh...

Grace and Peace be with you all on this lovely Friday..

Sarah